Sunday, October 24, 2010

Weak Week 5...

This week was pretty pathetic, quite a poor effort in terms of exercise! Monday and Tuesday was fine, but on Wednesday I thought it might be a good idea to do my workout in the pool instead of at the gym, but there was no empty lanes in the pool so I ended up doing a few laps in the hydro pool, didn't feel like a proper work out at all! Then on Thursday I didn't work out at all because of the old excuse "I'm too busy" I felt so guilty all night! Didn't weigh in until Friday and seen that I only lost 800grams. Was feeling kind of down so I came home and was checking my emails when I seen an email from Michelle... She was saying in it how well I'm doing and that she's really proud of me, I have to say it came at such an awesome time! It picked me straight back up, I went out the next day (Saturday) and did the Super Saturday workout, I SMASHED IT!! I jogged half a kilometer! I didn't think I was going to be able to finish it, but I kept going and before I knew it I had run 500 meters!! I don't mind saying that I felt absolutely awesome!! I could not have done that when I first started this program! I couldn't run AT ALL when I first started!
One of my "One month goals" was to be able to enjoy exercising, well I can safely say I ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT!! I've noticed that my abs are getting stronger too, I used to have to stop after 3 or 4 because it burned so much, but now I can do almost 10 without stopping!
My beautiful 4 year old son is also reaping the benefits of this new lifestyle, he NEVER used to eat his vegies, now he gobbles them down! He also does soccer and swimming every week too & loves "watching mummy exercise!" He gets down and tries to do some push ups with me, it's so cute!!
I'm finding out who my real friends are too. I have gotten tremendous support from most of my loved ones, but there are a few that haven't been talking to me as much, and when I do talk to them, they completely ignore me if I say anything about my weight loss journey. It really hurt there for a while, but now I have realised that they are just jealous! Which is really sad actually, because they are big people too and could be getting healthy right along with me, but they are too lazy or too set in their ways.
Oh well, no great loss. You win some, you lose some! I can't wait to get my 12WBT Shirt!!

One Month Mini Milestone!!

So this week marks an entire month that I've been in this new lifestyle and I am soo extremely proud of myself! I never stick to anything in life so just the fact that I have come this far is so awesome!! I have been getting heaps of compliments from my family & friends, I can't see any changes myself, but it's good to know that others can!
For my mini milestone this month I was supposed to do a 5 kilometer charity walk for diabetes in Newcastle, but the night before the walk I checked out the website for directions and realised I had signed up to the Sydney one! I didn't really want to travel all the way to Sydney, so I ended up putting Noah in the pram, the dog on the lead, and dragging my friend along with me for a 5 kilometer walk around the area where I live. I did a few jogging sprints throughout the walk as well. I was really proud of myself for getting through the whole thing, and very grateful to my friend Josh who is always there for me when I need him!
Although I didn't actually lose any weight this week, I didn't put any on either so that's ok! I have lost quite a bit in measurements too! 5cm off my chest, 7cm off my waist, 6cm off my butt! Can't wait to do the measurements again next month!!
I can feel that I've gotten so much fitter too, I went from not being able to even do 1 push up a month ago to doing 15 this time around!!
All in all I'm really happy with my new lifestyle & I'll NEVER go back to the way that I was!

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Week 3... Some times I really hate being a girl!! =(

This week started out fine, and ended ok, but the middle wasn't so great.
Monday went to the gym for a work out and some how hurt my knee while on the tready... Don't know what happened, it just started to hurt! The rowing machine KILLED my calves... I DON'T LIKE THAT MACHINE! LOL! I had to stop around 3 times on the treadmill while trying to do the "learn to run" program as I was just soo out of breath!
Tuesday was pretty crap, I had ANOTHER break down, I fell off the rowing machine! (SOO embarrassing!!) I stupidly put my towel on the seat of the machine, then after a few strides the towel moved & got caught underneath the sliding part and BOOM off I go, feet still strapped in and all! There were quite a few buff guys there so I was really humiliated & intimidated! WORST MOMENT so far!! Luckily for me I have an AMAZING friend doing this with me and he picked me up, brushed me off, and talked me through it. I got back on the rowing machine and continued with my workout & soon forgot all about it!

Wednesday I was PMSing really badly, I was trying to do the "learn to run" program again and I got really really mad at myself because I was so puffed & couldn't breath. No matter how hard I tried to keep to the program my body just WOULD NOT do what I wanted it to! I powered on though and finished the workout, can't believe how cranky I got though!! LOL! I weighed myself at the end of my workout and noted that I had lost 1.2kg. Not a lot, but hey it's a loss!

Thursday I realised how good my body is feeling!! Before I started this program just standing up from a sitting position would make me see stars, and I would feel a little puffed, and my body felt about 50! Now I'm feeling like a brand new girl! I still pause when I stand up waiting for the stars to go away or to catch my breath, but it's not happening! Even though the weight loss is really slow (probably because I have strayed from the diet) I'm feeling wonderful!!

Friday & Saturday were non existent for me, I had an extremely heavy flow & it was impossible for any exersise to be done. I hated every minute of it as I really look forward to my daily workouts! Another really bad thing about this time of the month is my mood & my sweet tooth!! I ate like 3 ice creams on Saturday, they were weight watchers ones, but still!! I know it's bad but the body doesn't want to listen to reason! =(

Sunday I was able to get out and do a bit of excersise so I tried to do both Fridays & Saturdays workouts, I did Fridays out in the sunshine at the local oval, my dad took my little boy over to the playground next to the oval so we all had a good time. It was nice to be out in the sun! I did however have an overly friendly dog come and jump all over me while I was trying to do my abs excersises!! LOL!! Saturday I was supposed to do all or part of my mini milestone that I'm completing next week which is a 5km walk, but I could only manage 2.5km on the treadmill... I'm a bit worried about next Saturday now!! I tried to make up for it by doing an extra 2omins on the bike though!

All in all this week was ok,
Highlights; I am noticing how grateful my body is for this new life.
Lowlights; Really need to learn how to control my sweet tooth at that time of the month!!

Friday, October 1, 2010

Second Week.... +3.2kgs!

This week was NOT a good week for me.
On Monday I stuffed up my dinner, I tried to make a chicken salad, & decided to experiment with different flavors, so I drizzled lime over the salad... RUINED! It was soo nasty!! So I ended up just eating the chicken. I was still really hungry when I finished it so I made myself 2 peanut butter sandwiches. I knew there would be a few more calories than in a normal snack, but I had NO IDEA just how many! Apparently there are 364 calories in just 1 peanut butter sandwich, so I ate 728 calories just in that snack!! I felt so sick & guilty when I found out, but I worked just a little bit harder on Tuesday to maybe try to make up for it a little, and I threw out the evil peanut butter!!
Then on Wednesday I was pumped to do my work out like I have been everyday, only I was a bit more excited than usual because Wednesday is weigh in day. So I got to the gym (this is a different gym to last week, as I was on a trial of the last gym & decided to join a different one.) hopped on the scales and it says I've lost 5kg! I was really proud of myself! With the 5kg loss that put me down to 129! I was 9kgs away from my 12 week goal! Then as I was high - fiving my gym buddy, the gym staff comes up to me and says "those scales are a bit light, you better come up the back" So I go up the back, hop on the digital scales and not only have I NOT lost 5kgs, I've PUT ON 3.2kgs!! I was soo disappointed! What had I done wrong? Surely the peanut butter sandwiches hadn't done that much damage! I think I was in shock, because I just went ahead with my work out. It sunk in towards the end of my work out & I just started to cry, overwhelmed with disappointment. I quickly pulled myself together though, and tried to "get over it". I went off to meet my friend after wards, she tried to comfort me but I wasn't in the mood to hear it, so I went and locked myself in the public toilets and let myself cry for a few minutes then pulled myself together once more. The day wore on and it got to lunch time, by this point I was really mad with myself, really hating on myself. So I went to the food court and found something really fatty that I knew I shouldn't be eating and scoffed it down like I hadn't eaten in 10 years! I felt so guilty while doing it, but I had some weird feeling that I was "getting back" at my body for not doing what I wanted it to do! The next day I didn't exercise at all, I even ate a piece of chocolate cake! But I re - watched a few of Michelle's "pre task" video's and sought out support on the forums last night to put myself back in the right head space.
Today when I went to work out there was no excitement, as I know I have a lot of work to do to undo the sabotage I have done to myself over the past few days. But once I got on the first machine & turned my mp3 player on, I realised that I was exactly where I wanted to be, and that I LOVE the feeling exercising gives me! I worked out a little bit harder today, to help undo some of the damage, and I'll be working out a little bit harder tomorrow too, but I know now that it doesn't matter if I lose weight every single week, I'm on the right track! I'm getting fit & healthy... Something I have never done before! So it doesn't matter if it takes a little longer than expected, the point is I'm doing the right thing & I'm very excited to see what lies ahead!!